Day 39- I can't believe I just wrote "Day 39"

Time flies when you're alive. I actually saw a solo theater performance of that name, many years ago, and that show actually inspired me to do what I am doing today, which is living a life of a solo theater artist, but I digress..... Well, actually, let me use that show as a metaphor for a moment. First of all, the show was written and performed by an actor/playwright named Paul Linke, and it is a beautiful tribute to his wife, who died tragically of Cancer when she was very young, as was their child, meaning their child was just a baby when this happened to them and disrupted their lives. This was back in the 1980's, and the show, which was a true story, by the way, actually was on HBO, and so, anyway, what I am trying to communicate here is that, the title of that show is something that never leaves me, and as I get older, sticks even harder in my belly, as people in my life all around me come and go, whether it be for no apparent reason, or for illness, or for whatever the circumstance might be, when I look back from time to time, it is humbling and sobering all at the same time to consider how things just fly by while we live our lives. My mother, just a few months before she passed away, said one day, when looking back at her life, "It's like a dream". Sometimes I wish she never said that, because I never seem to have even one day of my life since, where I don't think about that, although maybe that's a good thing. I don't know. In any case, I'm gonna put my running shoes on and put in some miles this morning, even though I don't feel 100% of myself today. But when do we really feel all of ourselves? That is rare, I believe. I think we need to intentionally try and USE all of ourselves every day that we can, though, as long as we are alive and able, because one day, that might just not be possible, and so, as I said, I'm gonna put in some miles on these legs today, using my heart and my lungs and my muscles and connective tissues, and you get the idea. And I'm going to come home and make myself a good breakfast, get on the phone and take care of a lot of business today, try and get my career to progress as much as I can today, work on my script, which I am in the process of memorizing now, finally, and then I am going to stop, at some point, and think about all of the things and the people that I am appreciative of in my life, which I try to find a moment to do every day, and that will be another day well spent, no matter the outcome of any of it, simply because I am living consciously, and with the intention of doing the best I can do, all the time, with every minute that I have available to me, and that, at least to me, is a life well lived. And thanks for reading this today, and every day that you are kind enough to show up here and visit me, and I hope you have a beautiful day, and that you feel well, and here's to a better world, for all of us.



A better world for everyone <3

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